Spring is coming !

hello dearies. i cant believe its almost end of feb - going on to march.
speaking of which - its been 5 years since we graduated from jc ! n 7 since mg.. i FEEL OLD.

kwa - hope u are surviving ur 2nd term break of smu . haha .. yr 1 is going to be over soon!
i finally finished my mum's pineapple tarts - still have bakkwa, floss and he bi hiam rolls still hidden from the guys hahah.

val- hope ur sem is good so far=) have a great time in the US and shop lots ! the offers now are really good - but the economy is getting worse.. the sgd weakened against the euro again. last friday i could get 1.95 at the bank or better.. but today its 1.99
im withdrawing from the atm so its whatever the spot is +0.03 or more ?
need to pay the rent soon so hoping n praying it will drop so i dont lose so much in terms of exchange rate.

joy - glad that ur internet is finally working ! haha .. itink it would be very hard to have a skype conference with all 3 time zones - at least one of us would be in a very weird time haha..
hope that u will meet more friends soon ! how are ur flatmates =) are they nice ?

mel - haha busybee mel !! im sure college will be a blast - jus dont have too much fun ya haha..im really lazy to start studying but i have an exam in a month . i jus need to pass but i think at the rate im learning i doubt i can even pass haha. its law n economics - so some stuff quite interesting - but theres quite a bit of econometrics n ive totally erased that from memory !
am presenting on march the 17th - my partner has nv come to class at all --- sheesh . haha but i have an easy topic- no math - gary becker - the economics of looking at life. easy read - hard to present !

lynn - hows things ! haha i saw on facebook - hug an engineer day haha? *hug* is it still cold ? hope it gets warmer quickly !!

i skipped cell again tonight , feel quite guilty but they end really late - n i dun really like walking from the metro to the cell leaders place alone n vice versa at the end. cos they end at like 1030 or later n its quite a distance to the metro . my hk friend usually goes - but she hasnt been going lately so i also dun really wanna go alone=p

have a tiny prayer request to ask of u guys , 2 actually.
1) i've submitted one job application to oracle - am still trying to do up my 2nd and 3rd - 2nd is to unilver , 3rd is for ac nielsen -need to do the unilever by 9th march - need to FIND my ic photo on my home com - madness haha..dad doesnt noe where i put it in my numerous backed up drives.
i really really still hope nike is opening applications this yr - havent heard anything so far n its quite late already .
i've applied mostly for graduate training programs - i guess its the best option cos it gives me some direction in my career when im not sure what i really want. n its structured so that there is room for learning n growth.
also - i guess its a guarantee that its a better pay than my 2nd alternatives which is to go back to research firms - i sent in a resume for Euromonitor - but i cant make it for the selection test so dun think the vacancy will still be there when i get back. i can always ask my ex-colleauges- prob will temp when i get back if i still cant find a job yet .

2) ive been feeling kinda depressed lately - i think i did mention it in my fb msg about paris .
i talked to tim about it - told him that i was feeling down although i wasnt sure if i should have.

he's got alot on his mind now- although the ocbc cycling thingy is over
(to digress alil - it was a good race - but he had to work for his teammates so he dint get a placing . he's kinda disappointed about it-but i htink he knows tt for now its kinda his role in the team to support the strongest riders (they came in 1st -to 5th) he n this other guy fininshed 18 and 12 respectively. )
he just signed the contract and midterms are next wk - so he's busy studying this wk. his best friend just left to go back to melb to study , although vishnu is still around he is working . (yup kwa for once smu n nus have matching break weeks.)

anyway . i very chiong hei. sorry haha. yup i jus feel that theres alot which i cant talk to tim about now cos i dun want him to worry about me or feel like he needs to do something to help me feel better. he knows that it would make me happiest if he can come - but nus is dragging their feet over when he will be taking his exams. his race is 2-6 may.so its either he takes it before or after that. either way dennis n i plan to be in venice on the 9th of may. +- 4 days on either side - > ive kept a 4-5 day window till about the 22nd when my parents come to go to paris.
im hoping either dennis or my friend doing her grad trip can make it during this period.
if not - il have to give up paris for another trip.

i feel alil silly feeling upset about it cos its so trivial - but ive been looking forward to coming to paris ever since i decided i wanted to come to europe for exchange . n i feel a lil xin tong to have to let it go. cos i really dont know when il have the oppt to come to europe again given that i dunno what il be doing n where il be in the coming years.
my parents wont let me go alone - n tim doesnt want me to either. it is quite lonely too to see such a beautiful place alone =(

i was doing my qt the other day- n the topic in the daily bread was on Philippians 4:6-7. i am feelign quite anxious cos my dad wants to book tickets for him n my mum soon. so i have to give him my sort of confirmed itinerary =( n tim doesnt want to spend so much if he really can come- but the longer u wait the more ex the tickets will be too? for me as well for the budget flights.

was also thinking of the song- God will make a way, so pls pray that God will help the nus ppl come to a decision soon, n if its not His will that i get to go to paris = that He'll give me strength to let go.
ive kinda resigned myself to the latter outcome , cos none of the alternatives of going with tim or with others seems to be possible, i feel like im having too little faith in God, but at the same time something inside tells me that His plan for me doesnt include paris right now.
thank u my dears =)

love , sarah